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Life.
Wow. Life is a really crazy thing. And I know that is totally cliche and unoriginal. Saying that I’m unoriginal and totally cliche after makes it even more cliche. Gaaaaah.
Anyways, my life has substantially changed over the course of the past year. For one, my best friend in the entire world left on a 2 year mission to Washington, Seattle. That’s my brother, Treyson Kyle Lewis. I miss him very much. Very, very much. Sometimes I feel so alone without him. I didn’t realize how much I loved and cared for him until he was gone. But he’s been gone for 11 months as of yesterday (…..crazy!) and I have a feeling that I can wait another 13 months. But I guess we’ll see.
Secondly, Johanne Parelius became my second sister! That’s right, I have a Norwegian sister. She came with a foreign exchange student program at the beginning of the school year, and she has exactly 7 days left living with us. So crazy. I don’t think that I’m ready for her to leave. I’m going to be so alone. I worry for her like a mother. I can’t help but want what’s best for her. I wish that I could be her shadow forever, but I guess it’s her time to move on to the next chapter of life. I guess.
My best friend Heeder Crouch leaves to work in Chicago in a week in a half… shoot. Remember how I talked about being lonely? Yeah, I’m screwed. He has been there for me so much in the past year. It’s unbelievable. I look up to Heeder so much. He is an older brother to me. The other day, I was having a really bad day. I didn’t say anything to him, he just knew. Anyways, that night at like 10, he called me and said that he was outside of my house so we could talk. I ran to him and gave him the biggest hug and started crying my eyes out. Instead of trying to give me advice or being annoyed, he just hugged me back and let me cry for a few minutes. I don’t think that I’ll ever forget that night. Everyone needs a friend like Heeder. Someday, I hope to mean as much to someone as Heeder means to me. I love him.
School is almost over and I’m scrambling to get my grades in order, as usual. It is what it is. But I’ve had a really great year and I’m the luckiest girl in the world. The whole world. I wouldn’t change my friends for anything. They’re the absolute best. I’m really happy with where I am.
Sorry if I bored you with this. But this is my life. And it’s not so bad.
All I want is to be enough.
All I want is to feel enough.
